I had a very long conversation with Carol this morning. My sister has this phone which is free for all calls made in the USA. It's really great. Now if we could somehow include India....the whole world would be like the ashram. It's bound to happen one of these days. Maybe I'd stop crying then. I still cry at the very mention of India even after four months. It was my life. Carol and I were saying that we both found India to be such a completely spiritual place, even the beggars in the street. Well, I said that, she didn't.
It's that spirituality that we miss so much. Truthfully I haven't felt much spirituality even at the center, and she didn't either.
But then this morning just a few minutes ago actually I saw an orange butterfly. You know when I was living downstairs in the apartment there were butterflies every where, mostly the orange ones so of course, SWAMI right? Well up here on the second floor, the beautiful green vine with the small pink flowers has climbed up to Crissy cross the window containing the air conditioner. It doesn't actually have any pink flowers so I was surprised to see the butterfly land on one of the leaves in the window. It made me so very happy and that happiness is what spirituality is all about isn't it? If we are looking for the Atma, that joy that blissful joy is certainly coming from Atma.
We were remembering India this morning as we spoke and I recalled the immense spirituality the bliss full state we actually lived in 24/7. Even when things were not going to well, like when there were no cheese pastries for supper (I can't believe I said that) the spiritual feelings were always there. In fact spirituality was so much of a constant that it was a little hard to concentrate, to focus on what was spiritual. Here, one small orange butterfly can bring such surprise and bliss. There....running for darsan, Sai Raming dozens of beautiful friends on the way, racing inside as fast as possible and sitting all kind of crouched together even before the vedic chanting started, would keep you completely engrossed in the spiritual world. Who knew it would ever stop and that soon we would be grasping at a butterfly in the window to feel Atmic Bliss. Who could possibly know.
But it isn't all so bad, is it? Spirituality is an inner state of being isn't it and at the ashram do we really appreciate all that bliss all the time..
I was told yesterday that my oldest friend, who shall be nameless, was told to leave the ashram. She had been there on the ashram possibly close to 40 years living completely alone in her little 10by 12 room in west 2. She was very much the enunciate having let go of all her friends and family years and years ago, Each morning we would see her rushing our to the vegetable sellers to buy food for her lunch, She never had a telephone, AC, a fridge and slept on a mattress made from coconut husks. Well, so did I and it was good for my back. Here in Florida my mattress is so high I have to use a small stool to get on the bed....really.
Anyway, I guess she's returned to New Zealand and my guess is that she'll stay there. Why? Because all of us love love so much. Oh yes, we all adore our precious avatar and couldn't possibly love Him anymore but the pure love of People and especially of children and grandchildren when it is no longer based on attachment is simply too sweet to put aside. My guess is that her wonderful family will wrap her up tight with their love and kisses and she will never want to leave them again. I could be wrong
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