Memories

It is 9 at night but I may have had an 'Aha' MOMENT. Did youall see '60 min. tonight? Fascinating. They had five people on who could remember every day of their lives and the details of every experience. I thought it might bt be important for me as a contrast because I have no memory what's so ever, I can't even remember what happened at interviews and the major events of my life. I always thought it was a mild brain dysfunction of some kind.

These five people all had very large temporal lobs....like seven times the size of normal people. Whether these lobes were large at birth or became larger because of all the remembering, no one knew. Another things they all had in common was that they were a little bit obsessive. One lady put all her shoes in then same place, one facing in and one facing out and the colors were like color coded. They all admitted that through the years they played mind games with themselves too. Like...I remember what happened on May 4th 1974, May 4th 1975 and so on all the way up to the present.

Ok so how am I different? Boring! I can't be bothered thinking about boring things. I could care less what happened on May 4th 1940 even though I was a 6 year old child going through a lot of trauma because that's when my sister left to get married. And the next year was boring and the next year and the next. I think that early on I considered most everything in the world, in my life as too boring to really think about. And interesting about the shoes because I would just kick off my shoes when I got home from school and never be ble to find them the next day. Boring!

Ok fast forward to 1974 when I found God. Suddenly I found life not to be boring any more because everything was seen in another dimension. The Avatar was in charge so nothing was boring. If He was in charge, if He was aware of my life then everything was important now. And so from then on my life had meaning. God was, God is in charge of everything so how can it be boring.

In fact I wonder if most of us devotees don't feel that way. Our Lord has given everything meaning. Nothing is boring anymore.

Maybe we can take this another step forward and this is the reason I leap out of my bed to do this blog. Maybe it is a fact that when God is there, His presence is felt. The Divine consciousness is all around us and that makes our lives bearable. MAYBE THIS HEIGHTENED AWARENESS IS WHAT DIFFERENCEATES THE WEST AND INDIA. (I LOVE IT WHEN THE CAP LOCK COMES ON BY ITSELF)

MAYBE THIS DIVINE AWARENESS IS WHAT CREATES SUPERIORITY AMOUNG INDIAS. THEY ARE SMARTER AND WISER AND MORE KIND AND GENTAL (when they aren't being corrupt and by cheating trying to outsmart us westerners. They really are superior people, perhaps because their sense of God consciousness keeps their culture free of the boring and the mundane. Ok, I'm going back to bed.

Did I tell you I can't leave this apartment for ten more months because I signed a lease? If I left early I could never use HUD again. I had forgotten that.