Happy Birthday or what

Ok well today is the big one, Swami's 85th Birthday. I am here and His form is there.


Sri Sathya Sai Baba

My Beloved

You made a promise so long ago

You said that You would never leave me

You said you'd never ever let me go

Sri Sathya Sai Baba'

I believed you

But now I'm here and You are there

Yet, you know, I'm never lonely

Because I know you're everywhere


I wrote it from a little jingle I've heard on TV.

Anyway I have to eat now so I'll talk to you later

I was thinking previously that Swami has said He doesn't like to celebrate His Birthday because He is eternal. But we should celebrate His birthday because He has taken birth to save humanity. Who else has done that? He came down here to earth knowing how much suffering would be involved yet He came anyway. No other form of God has done this at this time, only our Baba. And, of course we must consider all that He has accomplished, that little skinny boy in the short pants who took birth in one of the meanest most cruel places on the planet. We know how much He has had to suffer all through His life. If we could see we would notice all the dark blue on His throat from the poison He's had to drink for us. I spoke to Madhu, my programmer this morning and He said we should celebrate His birth every single day.

Well I missed His birthday. This year has been the first in 30 years I've missed and yet all along I had the feeling He really didn't care if I celebrated it or not. I also felt uneasy celebrating my own birthday but then, I was never glad that I was born, nor was my poor mother who at 42 really didn't want another child. She soldiered on however and tried her very best to be a good mother. My sister, ten years older, the one I've been living with lately, was my real mother though. Neither here nor there.

What is important though is that this morning after my meditation I had a bit of the truth. I somehow knew that I AM THE SPACE BETWEEN THE WORDS OR BETWEEN THE THOUGHTS. I AM THE GROUND, THE FIELD.

I spend a lot of time trying to be the thinker of my thoughts, the one who feels my feelings, I AM THAT I AM.

THIS WAS SUCH A PROFOUND THOUGHT OR THE SPACE BETWEEN MY THOUGHTS WAS SO PROFOUND that I turned off John Stewart. I was feeling so peaceful that I didn't want to stop the bliss. Happy Birthday Swami, it is the Indian way to give gifts to others on your birthday and You gave me the very nicest one.