Kashi Ashram

I've been having a hard time recently. Christine, the lady who worked
for me isn't working for me any more. It was a difficult relationship
because we were friends as well. I was very dependant on her to take
me places on the bus and also for shopping sometimes. After living
here for a year and a half I still haven't been able to do those
things without help. Fortunately there is the 'neighborly' bus which
takes us shopping every week but sometimes there are problems. There
is also a little store on the first floor if you're out of milk or
something. So I can make it. We went to the movies a couple of times
too. I always paid. We rode the bus out to see my sister a few times
but I paid for her time. It was like I bought her friendship and felt
weird. All the ladies here in this building are very independent and
most have cars and they are Christian fundamentalists, well, I don't
know how fundamental they are but I know they aren't Hindus! I'm not
a Hindu either, of course although I accept many Vedic beliefs...not
all but most. Atma, reincarnation, karma, I follow those teachings
and all of Swami's teachings. I figure 'help ever, hurt never' will
take you home right there. I wanted Christine to come once every two
weeks as this is a small one bedroom apt. and I should really do the
housework myself but she said she had to work twice as hard that way.
She really didn't work much at all and talked all the time when I was
on FaceBook or singing. Well as you can see, it was time to part even
though when I first came she was my only friend and sort of saved my
life. So I'll get someone else because my back hurts too much to run
the vacuum and do the wash.
Petty. Petty, really not worth writing about but all this started me
thinking about leaving my precious Peterborough apts.. I'd have to
explain it to St. Peter but people do come and go. So when I first
came back I was disparate to get out of my sister's house and somehow
found the name of this Ashram here in Florida; Kashi Ashram. According
to their home page it's very beautiful with a lake and a river and a
park with statues of the Buddha and I think Hanuman. They have yoga
classes and right next to it is a place for 'senior housing' They
have a guru who I believe use to be connected to Swami Ram Das who
wrote that book, 'Be Here, Be Now' It was one of the first books I
read. It seems that this lady is now fighting cancer but with her
healthy body, mind and spirit I'm sure she'll win.
It's too expensive for me, the rent is almost three times what I'm
paying here. I would love to live around 'spiritual' people again
but..I'm still afraid to take the bus to my sister's much less to
Sebastian Florida which is close to Fort Lauderdale. And yesterday I
went to Walmart on the 'Neighborly' bus and thought I was going to
die. I forget to eat and my blood sugar bottomed out. Had to get
someone to get me a wheel chair and get me through the cashier so I
could get to the bus. Oh and my blood pressure has gone way up...for
the first time...I think over this conflict with Christine. So I
should probably stay here where I'm safe. I sang 'Danny Boy'
yesterday at the Senior Center and brought down the house. I was
singing to 'Oh Sathya Sai', of course. There's going to be an Easter
Program too. Maybe someone rich could buy us Kashi.