With a Song

I am doing a new project. Well actually it pertains to the same old project, loving Swami more and more. A phrase from a standard tune comes to mind, 'I love you more today than yesterday dum dum dum, but not as much as,,,,to-mor-ro' That about sums it up actually. It's all about love.

Oh, about the project. I can't remember how it started exactly. I think maybe it was my idea to worship Swami in English, with English translations of the chants we do and love songs to Swami in English. Now, I love the bhajans, of course though it took me a while to do that because all my life I've been into western music based on the western scales, so-re-me-fa-so. I think Indian music is based on, sa-re-ma-pa something, anyway it wasn't so easy. In Whitefield I was a member of the Bhajan singing group for westerners and we got to sing under the tree on Sundays along with everyone else. So long ago, makes me feel weepy to think about it. Swami loved bhajan and so music filled our lives there at the ashram. Anyway so when I came back I decided to worship Him in my own way. On TV they have these programs of songs from the 60's, 'Moments to Remember' and I ordered the CD's more in order to support our Public Broadcasting than anything else. Well naturally we aren't interested in anything that doesn't pertain to Swami so I've been rewriting the lyrics making them Swami love songs.

I thought maybe I'd put these songs on U Stream in case any Sai Graduates would also like to sing love songs to Swami but somehow I can't get into their program. It might be because Swami doesn't want me to do it. Well of course that's why, who am I kidding...but the point is before I started doing this my devotion was a bit dry. We could go into that and it seems that most of my blogs so far have touched on that very subject, loving the Lord. So here I am in my little room in the state of Florida, doggie in my lap. Singing to Swami most of the day in sugary words and feeling the love growing in my heart. It actually works.

Believe it or not, it's only 5in the morning and already two titles have come to mind, 'You keep coming back like a song' and 'With a song in my heart' You know. 'With a song in my heart, I behold Your Adorable face' ? I've done about 25 songs so far but they keep coming. And my heart keeps growing sweeter. Maybe I could start writing love songs from scratch but I am very limited. I'm a singer and singers sing. I took music in college but not enough to write music. Anyway I'm not going to turn this project into any kind of a 'mind game' I deliberately veered off the Vedic tract towards a more worshipful approach to loving our Lord, heart felt.

So I may not even pass these love songs on to others which will be a first for me. I ALWAYS pass everything on to others. It's like impossible for me NOT to think of others. But maybe now, I'll just sit with my little doggie and my Swami and love him more and more because that is the whole point. I'll love Him more and more and more and then I'll love myself more and know that we are one. What else is there to do, what else is there to know, what else is there?