Swami. Please give me a blog

I'm all set up now for Swami to give me a blog. I've got it all saved and everything. Now, where is it. I wrote one about a week ago but it was so negative my precious programmer wouldn't upload it. Didn't sound like a Sai Graduate because I was feeling like a Sai Failure. But today is a new day and there's hope in the air.

I'm sure I told youall about Peterborough, the subsidized high rise in downtown St. Pete. I thought I would be able to afford it and felt I really needed my own space. 30 years ago I struck out for India on my own because I wanted a place for myself. Mama told me that this house was a 'children's house' and I never had any children, or a husband for that matter. Swami knew that, of course and has been getting me ready to live by myself all these years. This will be for the first time, for me at least, He started the ball rolling by destroying my Indian life and almost destroying me. I hope this isn't too negative.

Ok we'll cut to the good stuff. My sister Betty and I went down to Peterborough for the interview. I was feeling a little nervous because I have so little money. The lady did some figures with her calculator and then said, “Rent would be 89.90 A MONTH. I almost gagged. 'This is supposed to be one third of my pension but that's less” I said. 'Yes but ….there was some explanation that I really didn't get nor did I want to argue of course. I'll take it,' I smiled.

She went on. “The Sunshine Center is right across the street for yoga classes and other benefits including a social worker on duty . The main library is also just across the street. You can use their computer as well as read the books. The flat has AC, a frig and a range and wall to wall carpeting. I think I've told youall this before.

'One thing tho', I murmured. 'The view from the east is of Tampa bay and the Yacht club. Any chance I could have one of those?'

'I don't think so, this flat which is available isn't in that direction.'

I was thinking how divine it would be to sit facing the bay in the middle of a hurricane. So I filled out the forms. On the way home my sister and I discussed it. 'If I'm only paying 90 dollars a month that's about 4000 rupees. I could afford to keep that flat and go to India once a year maybe!'

The next day I got a call from Sherril, the administrator at Peterborough. 'We have another apartment', she said, 'but it wouldn't be available until Oct. 'It has a view to the south and you can see some of the bay. It's on the 15th floor.'

'I'll take it' I said quickly. 'And October would be fine. My niece is coming down from the north end of September and we'd have a chance to visit.'

Look how Swami has been working this out. Pretty soon I will be in my own space, reading my prayers and just talking to Him. That's what I like best to do....just sitting quietly, looking at my favorite picture of Swami and talking talking. Somehow all the small and not so small difficulties just disappear. Well, not automatically. He's better than a psychiatrist. It works best tho if we are really alone as we were for 30 years in the round house at Prasanthi. And He doesn't seem to mind if I rattle on.