Friday, April 30, 2010

Dearest Sai Graduates new and old

In hopes that this blog might offer some support to those on this same ‘coming and going’ journey, I will continue on my saga.

I was actually feeling pretty happy. I was thanking Swami for such a lovely apartment. I was feeling that He had placed me in another paradise of sorts. My room at Prasanthi is certainly a paradise and now this well decorated beautiful apartment is also. I sit and work on one bed and all my stuff is laid out on the other. My computer is in reach and the bathroom and kitchen, very nice also. My sister gives me lunch and we share huge bowls of rice, beans, cheese and veggies which tastes very delicious. Swami, through my sister, had made me so very happy.

But deep inside I heard or felt a small voice saying, “Do you think I brought you over here to give you more happiness and security? No, no, what purpose would that serve. You are here to continue learning and it would not be good for you if I abandoned you to comfort and security. What would be the point of the trip?”

At that point in time, just as I filled my large bowl with my sister’s wonderful soup, she said, “My youngest son, his wife and three children are coming in June.”

“Oh good,”I enthused.

“Do you remember that he doesn’t like you very much?”

“What? Why? I haven’t seen him or given him a thought, in 20 years. What did I do to him?”

“When you were here last you suggested among other things that our mother sell this house and give you 10,000 dollars to go back to India.”

“I did? Oh my God! I don’t remember.”

“You did. You were terrible really terrible.”

“I was? But, you see, that couldn’t happen again because now I am a Sai Graduate.”

Silence

“Yes, I am. I have been studying His teachings and listening to His discourses for 30 years all together. I have had some transformation. I am a Sai Graduate”

And a new label was born for all of us

“I tried to smile as I ran out the back door to the apartment.

During the next week or so I was told by my sister that her son did not want to see me when he came for his vacation

I felt very humiliated and not at all like a Sai Graduate. I told my sister that I didn’t understand. And she tried to explain.

“He has arranged this trip, his vacation, to be here and he doesn’t want it to be ruined.”

I was mortified that just the sight of me would ruin his vacation.

Well for the first time since I started this journey I began repeating, ‘Sai Om, Sai Om’ and looking deeply into His picture for help. Just as our Dearest Swami predicted, the pain made me feel closer to Him.

“I will try to find another place,” I said. “Maybe I could fly to Californis and stay with that niece out there. I have sort of an open invitation.”

“He is reconsidering his first impression of your being here. He says now that he will be civil.”

“Oh great,” I said in relief. “I can just make a little small talk, you know, ask his kids how they like school.”

“No, no” she shouted. “These are my son’s children and none of your business.”

I felt the kitchen floor give way. This was an indication of the kind of treatment I had received as a child from Mama. I was worthless in the eyes of my family. I had always been somewhat childlike, had nearly failed all my subjects in school so that it took 10 years to finally graduate college and I never married so I didn’t have children. My older sister and brother both had genius IQ’s, my other sister looked like a movie star and had 6 kids and I….had nothing which could be considered worthwhile. Of course I had been a social worker with abused children for 15 years but….so what.

So much for living in paradise. I was no graduate of Sai’s teachings. But I somehow hung in there to face another day.


SONG OF GOD

Don’t put yourself down

Cause, you know what

I’ve found?

Well, when

You’re not nice to you

It’s always the same

If you cause yourself pain

You give others a little of it too

So, love the Lord in you

Then, I think that its true

At lease, this is my advice

Love Sri Sathya Sai

For He’s the Lord inside

Then you’ll find to everyone

You’re nice.

Words Of God

I am putting in Swami's discourse from Kodaikanal because it has been done so beautifully, it is the absolute Truth and because my friend sent it to me to give me the guidance of Advaita. This is Swami's discourse from Kodai kanal.




REALISE THE PRINCIPLE OF UNITY

Creation emerges from truth

and merges into truth.

Is there a place in the cosmos

where truth does not exist?

Visualise this pure and unsullied truth.

WHEN YOU LOSE FAITH,

YOU LOSE GOD

Everyone desires peace and happiness.

Nobody wants sorrows and difficulties.

In his speech, Popat has said that

all are the embodiments of God.

God is one.

There is no second entity.

When you think there is a second entity, then it is untruth.

Therefore,

there is nothing like a second entity.

All are One

Right from small ants, mosquitoes, and birds to mighty elephants,

every being

is the manifestation of God.

Even the trees, hills, and mountains are manifestations of God.

Such being the case, how can there be a second entity?

A second entity is just

your imagination and illusion.

It is of your own making.

Just think where your body has come from. You say that it has come from your parents. No, no.

You have not come from your parents.

You have come from yourself.

There is only one entity.

Where is the existence of the second?

But people today put their faith in diversity and not in unity.

What does unity mean?

It is not the combination of many;

it is the realization

of oneness.

When you have mirrors all around you, you see your many forms.

These are all your different forms.

But this is not the truth.

The one who asks the question and

the one who gives the reply,

both are one and the same.

All are one.

Daivam manusha rupena

(God is in the form of a human being).

The same person

appears in many forms.

To consider these forms as different from each other is a mistake.

When I am speaking in the microphone, you are listening to My voice.

The speaker is only one but the

same voice

is heard by many ears.

Ekoham sarva bhutanam

(I am the only Reality in all beings),

Ekam sath viprah bahudha vadanti

(truth is one, but the wise refer to it by various names).

There is only one sun in the sky.

But we see its reflection in many rivers, tanks, and vessels.

Sun is only one. But wherever there is water, you see itsreflection.

Pour water in a plate, and you can see the reflection of the sun even in that water.

Does it mean that the sun is there in this water?

No, no. It is only the reflection of the sun.

In the same way,

Atma is only one.

The mind, the intellect, the subconscious mind, and the ego sense are like different vessels.

Therefore, divinity is one.

God can be seen in a pure heart.

Everything is God.

If you think otherwise, it is only your delusion, i.e. maya.

When the sun is shining above, you can see its reflections in all tanks.

Even where the water is dirty, you can see its reflection.

But when the water is totally dirty, then, of course, you cannot see its reflection.

In the same way, when your heart is pure and clear, you can see the direct manifestation of God in it.

But your heart is impure.

When you thoroughly clean your heart,

you can very well see God.

God is immanent in everyone.

Right from a newborn baby

to a grown-up and old person,

He is present in everyone.

A small baby grows up and ultimately becomes old.

The baby, the woman, and the old lady are the same person.

Because of their thinking, people see many different forms.

But God does not have different forms.

In fact,

He has no form.

However, He has many names. Even though He has many names, they all correspond to the many reflections of the same divinity.

You can see the reflection of the sun in flowing water and also in stagnant water. In the flowing water, the reflection appears to be wavering, but in steady water, the reflection is also steady.

Your mind develops attachment to the world because of your delusion.

Everything in this world is just a projection of maya.

Hiranyakasipu asked his son Prahlada, “Where is God? You are always chanting Narayana, Narayana. Who is Narayana?

Prahlada replied, “Man himself is Narayana. Wherever you see, you see only Narayana. He is in me, He is in you, He is in all others.”

Hiranyakasipu asked, “Is He there in this pillar?”

“Surely, He is there in it”, replied Prahlada.

Hiranyakasipu took a mace and hit the pillar with it. At once he saw the manifestation of Lord Vishnu. Therefore, wherever you see, God is there. But people like Hiranyakasipu have no faith in God.

Develop the vision to see unity.

Though there is total unity in creation,

we look at it from the angle of diversity.

We say,

“He is my father,

she is my mother,

she is my elder sister,

she is my younger sister.”

We develop relationships on the basis of forms.

Where have these relationships come from?

Nothing can exist without the principle of unity.

Here is an example:

A dog entered a room fitted with mirrors

and saw many dogs in the mirrors.

It was afraid to see so many dogs in the room, considering them as danger to its life.

In order to escape from the situation,

it jumped upon one of the mirrors,

considering its own reflection in it to be another dog.

As it did that, it saw that the dog in the mirror also jumped upon it.

In the process, the mirror broke.

Then, it felt that there was no other dog at the place and escaped from the room.

It felt greatly relieved that it could save itself from so many other dogs.

But where were so many dogs?

It saw its own reflection in so many mirrors.

The same is the case with people today.

If one sees all other forms as his ownreflection

in the mirror of the world,

one will realise the principle of unity.

So,

there are no such separate entities

like father, mother, brothers, and sisters.

But one develops worldly relationships due to one’s delusion and says, “She is my sister, he is my brother, he is my father, she is my mother.”

These are all only physical relationships and not the relationships based on your divine reality.

Try to understand that the same Atma is present in all.

But you develop worldly relationships,

forgetting the principle of the Atma.

You say, “She is my wife” but prior to the marriage, she is separate and you are separate.

Only after the marriage do you say, “My wife, my wife.”

How you have developed this relationship of husband and wife?

It is due only to your delusion.

It is because of delusion that one makes many mistakes and indulges in many undesirable activities.

Wherever you see, there is God

and God is one.

People say, “He is Rama, He is Krishna, He is Shiva, He is Vishnu.” What does it mean?

Does it mean that Vishnu, Shiva, Rama, and Krishna are separate entities?

These are the different names of the same God.

God appears before you in a particular form based on your own imagination.

When you contemplate on the form of Krishna as portrayed by artists like Ravi Varma, God will manifest before you in the form of Krishna.

In the same way, God will appear before you in the form of Rama.

But God is neither Rama nor Krishna.

Both Rama and Krishna are you only.

The forms of Rama and Krishna

are nothing

but your own reflections.

When you say,

“I want Rama”,

God manifests before you in the form of Rama.

Similarly, when you say,

“I want Krishna”,

He appears before you in the form of Krishna.

All these forms are nothing but your own reflections.

Reduce the burden of your desires

Both sorrow and happiness are in the world.

When you are in difficulty, you say, “Alas! Why has God given me this difficulty? What sin have I committed?”

On the other hand, when you earn wealth and are happy, you say, “It is my good fortune.”

Neither this is your good fortune nor that is bad.

When you have good thoughts, you will have good results.

On the other hand, if you have bad thoughts, you will have bad results.

good and bad do not come from outside.

Everything is God.

When people see a scorpion, they are afraid that it might bite them.

But, in fact, there is God even in that scorpion.

There is no being

in whom God is not immanent.

However

you have to get rid of your delusion.

People have too many desires.

These too many desires are the cause of delusion.

Therefore, people should reduce their desires.

How should one do so?

All desires are the creation of the mind,

which behaves in an arbitrary way.

Manah eva manushyanam karanam bandhamokshayo

(mind is the cause of bondage and liberation of man).

You should make efforts

to follow the path of liberation.

Then, there will be no scope for delusion.

But people are full of desires, and the cause of all desires is the mind.

Therefore, first and foremost, control the mind.

If you do so, you will not have even a single desire.

Less luggage more comfort makes travel a pleasure.

God will be pleased with you only when you reduce the luggage of your desires.

More desires become a great burden for life

. With less luggage, you will be more happy.

When one is unmarried, one thinks,

“Whatever I have, I can manage with it.

I am not bothered even if I have to starve sometimes.”

But when one is married and has children,

one is burdened with so many worries.

Where have the wife and children come from?

They have come from

the same source

as you have come.

You think someone is your wife because you develop attachment to her.

Can you call every woman your wife?

No, no. When you say so, you will be beaten.

You cannot talk like this.

The relationship of wife and husband is only a ‘body to body’ relationship.

This physical relationship is the cause of many troubles.

A person with money is called a rich man. But the same person will be called a beggar when they lose his money.

When you are wealthy, you are considered bigger;

when you are poor, you are treated like a beggar.

Therefore, the same person is bigger as well as beggar.

Develop equal-mindedness, and everything will become good for you.

Even if somebody beats you, you should think,

“The person who is beating me is none other than God.

God has beaten me because there is some defect in me.

This body has committed a mistake.

Therefore, it has to receive punishment.”

Whatever we do,

it will come back to us

as reaction,

reflection,

and resound.

All that we experience is the result of our own actions.

It is not given by God.

God does not give anything to people except ananda (bliss).

Having experienced ananda, do not criticise the One who has provided it to you.

Both happiness and sorrow are the reflection of your own actions.

When God loves you,

it means that God loves Himself.

God has no attributes.

God has no such evil qualities like anger, hatred, jealousy, and hypocrisy, nor are these evil qualities given to you by God.

These are all of your own making.

Therefore,

get rid of your delusion.

If you develop unnecessary worries,

thinking,

“I don’t have this, I don’t have that”,

you will deceive yourself.

Reduce your desires.

Then you will have not to carry too much luggage. Only then can you be happy.

Know the Atmic Principle

Having real love for God, always contemplate on Him.

If you have liking for Rama, contemplate on Rama.

Similarly, if Krishna is your chosen deity, contemplate on Him.

But always remember that Rama and Krishna are not outside;

Rama is in your heart, Krishna is in your heart.

Whatever form you consider as Rama, contemplate on that form with your eyes closed.

You will certainly visualise that form.

Ultimately, you will realise,

“It is out of my delusion that I considered Rama and Krishna separate from Me.

In fact,

I am Rama,

I am Krishna.”

When you contemplate on Rama,

you see that form as a reflection of your thoughts.

Similarly, when you think of Krishna, you see Krishna’s form.

You think Rama and Krishna are different from you because of your delusion.

Who has seen Rama?

Who has seen Krishna?

Artists like Ravi Varma painted the pictures of Rama and Krishna on the basis of the descriptions given in the sacred texts.

These are mere pictures;

they do not reveal the truth.

Everyone can call God by any name of their choice, like Rama, Krishna, Govinda, etc., and contemplate on a particular name and form.

There is no mistake in that.

I don’t ask you to give up this practice.

But you should have firm conviction,

“I am God.

My Atma is God.”

The Atma has no form.

It has only a name.

The Atma Shines

in everyone

like the sun.

It can be seen only in a heart that is pure.

In the heart that is impure, you cannot see it.

Many Avatars came to propagate this truth.

Divine incarnations come not for their own sake but to impart the knowledge of truth to everyone.

Follow their teachings and

understand the principle of the Atma.

Vedanta proclaims that

the Atma is the only reality.

Waves are formed out of water.

There can be no waves

when there is no water.

In the same way,

there can be no form

without the Atma.

You should contemplate on the Atma

chant the mantra

“Om Namo Narayanaya,

Om Namo Narayanaya,

Om Namo Narayanaya”.

If you are unable to chant the entire mantra, it is enough to recite “Om”,

because everything is immanent in Om.

The word Om denotes pranava (primordial sound).

The Upanishads describe it as the Atma.

The Taittiriyopanishad deals extensively with the principle of the Atma.

The Ramayana, the Bhagavata, and the Mahabharata reveal the same truth through the stories of the Avatars.

Everything is within you.

Nothing is outside.

The entire creation is one.

Get rid of your delusion

try to understand the truth behind names and forms

Name and form are inseparable.

You chant, “Sai Ram, Sai Ram, Sai Ram …”

The name “Sai Ram” has been given to Me.

I am not born with this name.

Similarly, the names Rama and Krishna were given to them

by their parents.

They were not born with these names.

Did Rama come and say, “I am Rama?”

No, no.

He was the son of Dasaratha

and was given the name Rama.

What does the word Dasaratha mean?

It means the chariot of human body with its ten senses.

Have control over your senses.

When you have total control over your senses, there is no need for anything else.

You even forget yourself.

You forget even your physical body.

It is the mind that controls the body and the senses.

The body and the senses are temporary.

Even the mind is also subject to annihilation.

We say, “mind, mind, mind.”

Where is the mind?

What is the form of the mind?

It has no form.

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